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What Has Happened??!!

Oh my gosh it has been a while since I posted but, this is not about that.

I want to know…..

What has happened to Gorean dance?

What has happened to the beauty personified in a slave dancing?

What has happened to the love of the dance?

What has happened to the raw emotions that are felt when watching a girl dance?

What has happened to the pride in doing your best performance to please the free?

What has happened when your music, words, animations have nothing in common?

What has happened to the humor, in a slave dancing being happy, silly, hoping that the free may laugh and enjoy her dance?

What has happened to the music? When did Gorean musicians play techno, dub, today’s music and have top 40 pop singers….singing…pop tunes?

What has happened to the reason behind the dance?

What has happened to slaves dancing to please the free and instead dancing to please themselves?

What has happened to the knowledge and understanding WHY a slave dances?

What has happened to the culture of Gorean dance?

What has happened to the culture of Gor?

What has happened to Gorean dance?

What has happened?



I have been inspired I guess you can say. Looking at all of Juls blogs have really inspired me to try again to get back into blogging. But sadly the same issue comes forth. WHAT to write about? I sort of want it to be meaningful, insightful, to give you the reader that WOW factor.  sooooooooooo  I thought and thought and guess what?  Still the same thing, I sit down and well, sort of plan to write something but then.. BLAM. My mind switches, but that is how most of my blogs and actually come to think of it, my conversations go.

So I am going to get back into writing, it was suggested that since I do explore so many places to just write about that. hmmm, that is a possibility. But what is weighing on my mind now is Gorean Slaves.  *Gasp*   Yea, I know right! Whatever do you mean Pudding?

Well, just this, when and why are slaves being sometimes treated as a free? And where are the real Gorean sims.  Now thinking about those two things, they are actually two different types of blog, but hey! That is how my mind is thinking the day after daylight savings time!

Where is the Gorean sim, that has Masters actually acting like Masters. Now I am not saying for the men to beat on their chests “ME MASTER….YOU SLUT…YOU SEX ME NOW!” umm No. Those are the newbie Masters. {rofl}  But where are the Masters that actually have enough balls to discipline a slave that is not there own. * Which goes back to my other question? Slaves having what they will and will not do in their profiles. Umm guess what chika you are a slave. If you don’t like it, go to a non Gorean sim. “I will FTB or TP out with no r/p in 15 minutes”  Really???  So then you being a slave is not about wanting to serve the free, its about you wanting to get your slap and tickle game on, then leave.

Guess what slaves? This is an important service announcement, its not all about you. Really it isn’t. If you want it to be all about you go to the hottest BDSM screw me, scene over, find a different person to screw sim.  Being a slave is about your owner. * Now that also goes to the Owners/Masters, who are scared to say anything in local to their slave for fear of not getting the nookie that night. Knock knock!   Yo! Master dude! Guess what! YOU are the Master not your slave. hmmm why did Maury mixed with Oprah come into my mind. “YOU are not the Master!”  “YOU get a slave” YOU get a slave” “YOU are not the Master” “YOU…You…YOU are NOT the Master”  (shakes head okay I’m back now)  Were you saying that in the Oprah voice “you get a car…you get a car…you you you get a car LOL”  Okay I am really back now.

But the question still remains, where are the Real Good Gorean Sims.  I was actually talking to my Master the other day about something close to this. When you say this sim is BTB, or this or that is BTB. What actually does that mean?  John Norman said one thing in Book one, then by the time book 15 came around he totally changed his mind. So when is BTB actually BTB and who’s interpretation are you using?  10 different people can read 1 think and get 15 different ideas from it. So when a sim is stating they are BTB, it might not be what you think is BTB. So then, what is a BTB sim?

How about having a place that is just a Gorean sim?  Yea some will call it lifestyle but isn’t that what we do on any sim. Live the life of a FM, a FW, a FC, a slave? Living the life = lifestyle, just depends on how deep you want to take it. Do you want to scratch the service or do you really want to dig down deep into the culture?  That’s something to think about, ya know?

I totally got off of what I was planing to say. *laughs* but I am not shocked. So Masters, if you are on a Gorean sim, and you see a slave, there for say a week or two even, without any hint of a Master, what do you do?   Just because there is a tag above her head saying someones name does that mean you cant touch?  But wait!!  Remember people did not wear tags above their head in Gor.

*Thumb tack again*

Wouldn’t it just be totally cool, if they could make the sims, to when you land on it, your name tag vanishes, your profile vanishes, your ‘title’ vanishes. The only thing is you, the person. And then you would have to walk around and actually talk to people to get to know who they are, what they are, what restrictions the slaves actually have. Don’t you realize how much more people would interact with each other?   A slave is walking around, she is beautiful, you want a drink, food, maybe more. You would actually have to talk to the slave. And on the flip side, the slave would actually have to talk and act as a slave when speaking. Her “tag and profile” wont announce she is owned, she is restricted, she is white silk, red silk, first girl, last girl, nothing.  Ohh the Free would have to come out of their homes and speak to people. Now I just thought of eliminating IM’s but they may be necessary, but I wonder if there was a way it could be restricted or something. I don’t know, I will have to work on my imaginary sim a little bit more. But come on now! Admit it!  That would be so flipping cool, just having to talk to people to find out who they are.

*takes out the thumbtack and tries to remember the though line she was on*

OH Yea, Masters seeing slaves. A lot of girls are not owned, but say they are just to be able to go onto a sim and decide if they want to play. But what if slaves were slaves and free were free. Hmmm interesting thought actually.  *sighs* What was the original idea for this blog anyhow?  I don’t know.

But my mind is now a total blank. soooooooo you know whats next.


That’s all for now…………  Nope not yet.  LOL I did say I was going to try to do a travel blog, but I have no brain so I will just show you the two pictures I took today. That is if I remember how to add them…..*sets the timer*

How long will I wait …….. forever

Will wait forever

How long will I wait ……. forever

This is where I took these two pictures, just went to the landing spot. I have more from here on my flicker page.

Visit this location at Sordid Affair – Grace Island in Second Life

Waiting through the night

Through the still of the night, I will wait for you

Okay, I am not saying HOW LONG it took for me to remember how to do this *laughs*  But I will say …..

That is all ………

I’m going crazy!!

No no, its not a vent, well not a real vent. More of a “pulling out your hair why are you not thinking” vent. I am doing the POE hunt. And some of the stores where they hid the globes. “SCREAMS”  LOL

I mean really. After a hard day’s work. My brain is DONE!  But nooooo, I have to think and think and search and then when I see it, RIGHT IN FRONT OF MY FACE. I wish I really could face-palm avi and me.

grrrrrrrrr 2_001

The struggle is real LOL


See how big this place is

I’m right there! That little tiny dot looking for an even tinier globe. Why Pudding you say? If it makes you go crazy then why do you do it?

Simple answer. I love doing hunts. *Laughs*

Okay, back to searching.

That’s all for now………

I converted to the Dark side …. j/k the Mesh side

This is an expert from my July 8 blog….

“Hey Pudding, so what has changed about you”? I’m so glad you asked, After *counts on fingers* 7 years of having this Avi, and altering n’ adjusting and adjusting n’ altering I got a new shape and skin. *GASPS*  And I think I have given up some of my protest, not all but some, I still don’t change my complete self to fit into a mesh outfit, but I might tweek a few numbers if it does not change the shape much.  But I don’t have a picture saved of me, I didn’t change that much. In fact only one person I think in Haifa even mentioned I looked different. LOL. But its a big change to me so there!


I have to admit it. I did change my complete self to fit into a mesh outfit. I did more than that. *hangs head in shame*  I am sorry to all my fellow protesters, I know I said I would never to a mesh body….but….but….but… It’s just so perfectly curvy, and smooth and and and… well I did it!  I jumped ship. I changed sides. I went to the .. dum dum duuuummmmm Mesh side. And I LOVE IT 🙂 🙂 😛

I have been looking at mesh bodies for a while now, but was not able to find one that I like, I mean really really liked. I don’t want to be a size -3 kajira. Gorean men are big and they might break a little twig. .. Okay, to be totally honest, I can’t say its because I am in Gor. I have always made my shape to be a full figured woman. I just like the curves. And besides, nobody wants a bone but a dog. STOP STOP, don’t fuss and get your panties in a wad. I am saying this is what I like. If you are a -3 and you love it, then more power to you. But as for me!!!  and since this is my writings, I will say it. Nobody wants a bone but a dog!  heehee wait what was I talking about,.. *stops to read up*  oh yea!

So I was getting demos and getting demos and getting demos, and you guessed it, getting demos of mesh bodies, even with the sliders I could not look how I wanted to. BUT!!!!!  FINALLY!!!!!!! *insert dramatic music here* I found the Belleza Venus Mesh body and using the Freya shape I was finally able to look almost how I wanted to.

the new me 2_001

Day one of mesh body

Halloween 2015

After some adjustments. On Halloween

So you see the difference between day one and Halloween. NO I don’t look like that all the time. Just wanted to show the difference in thickness.

And I truly do love it. Still trying to make some adjustments and trying to re-do my clothes closet. Good thing about being a kajira is sometimes the less clothes the better. heehee

But I do wish some of the mesh designers would think about us thick girls. Size xxs is just two dang small, thing about us curvy girls ..AND just because the hips and thighs and butt are thick does not mean we all have football player shoulders and are about 4 months pregnant. Geesh!!!! Okay before I start a rant on that, and only one rant allowed per week, its time for me to say..


That is all……….

It’s been a while but I’m baaaaaaaaaack …. for good this time

I did not realize how long its been since I blubbered… I mean blogged about my life in SL. I looked back and it was LAST YEAR, almost a whole year has passed by. Okay maybe not a whole year just about 8 months, but thats pretty dang close. Has a lot happened?   Duh!! I live in SL Gor, things change ALL the time.  Let me see if I can do a quick play by play update. Since my last post.


Here I go?

Master found us a home sim, we moved to Port Haifa back in January or February, He became a citizen and I have a great photo of that on my flicker. Yeps. I’m still addicted to flicker. LOL  Don’t judge me!!!!!!! I love it!!!!  Petitioning for Citizenship  And we have been through the Up and downs of a Gorean sim since then. I’m not going to bore you with them or hash over what happened but its SL Gor, you already know or if you don’t, it doesn’t matter. And if you do know, it still doesn’t matter

because its in the past.  heehee

So whats going on today?  I went to RLF and lit 2 luminaries. Of course next to Goreans Relay For Life.


Goreans Relay for Life

Got a little sad thinking, so figured, I will go visit again when I have someone with me.   Okay time to change subjects before I get mopey again.

“Hey Pudding, so what has changed about you”? I’m so glad you asked, After *counts on fingers* 7 years of having this Avi, and altering n’ adjusting and adjusting n’ altering I got a new shape and skin. *GASPS*  And I think I have given up some of my protest, not all but some, I still don’t change my complete self to fit into a mesh outfit, but I might tweek a few numbers if it does not change the shape much.  But I don’t have a picture saved of me, I didn’t change that much. In fact only one person I think in Haifa even mentioned I looked different. LOL. But its a big change to me so there!

Ya’ know, I was just thinking a LOT has happened since we came to Haifa, but I would not change a thing about my Master nor my Chainsister. I love them to bits!   So in my musings, I may revert back to something, and if I do and go totally into left field, welllllll, that’s okay. Once you are able to follow my train of thought then  you have reached the pinnacle of understanding a scattered mind.

I think I will try to start at least once a week updates, but you can also check out whats going on with my flicker, its more of my SL life, not just my Gorean life. “EGADS! She does something else other than Gor?!?!?!?”  Yes, I do a lot outside of Gor but that does not change who I am, a kajira owned by my Master. I just enjoy what SL has to offer.

Ohhhh and some of the Sims I have visited, Okay, I will have to go back and to visit and give you updated on them, I have seen some AMAZING things. And some pretty strange things that make you say  What you talkin' bout Willis  - what chu talkin  bout willis. ..

But I’ll show you those later, because I am not in world right now. LOL   alright, Time for me to go, RL is knocking “HOLD ON I’M COMING” change that to banging at my door.

That is all……………